First Post, New Blog

I've written much these last two years. And mean much, lol. There are forums full and enough Facebook craziness to fill eons of time. Then there are all the mountains of things I have never written. I've always sucked as a penpal and failed as a journal bunny. And there was so much that could have been written, but it seemed more therapeutic to me to go through it all while pacing my living room at 3am, headphones on ears, tears on cheeks. Oh, all those nights - the long, long nights after June 25, 2009 - for months on end, in which the loss of Michael from this physical world left me shredded, destroyed, attempting to reconstruct every atom of my being from the inside out. I was "lucky" in the sense that I didn't have a "normal job" at the time and could mourn from the depths of my being, which would be a severely understated way to put it. If I'd have had a job I guarantee I'd have been fired. It was doing good just to stay alive and keep breathing day to day without the beautiful man who'd somehow been my oxygen for all these years. I could never explain to anyone who doesn't get it just how much I LOVE Michael Jackson... since I first discovered him in the 80's until forever. He is deeper in my heart than my own DNA, deeper in my soul than ... I don't know what or who, how or why. He just is. And he continues. He is forever, not just in my heart, in your heart and through this world, but for those of you who know... absolutely, without a shadow a doubt in the next. Bless you, my beautiful Love, Michael. I'm yours, forever and always.

Let the blog begin...